As I write this, our boy is 4 weeks old tomorrow. I’ve been busy trying to savor every first moment, because there are lots of firsts that I simply have to breath in every single day. And, its happening all around me, all the time. I find myself sitting in the quite moments, watching our children….his squeeky noises, the way he smiles in his sleep, her reasurring him when he cries, the songs she makes up for him to make him smile…..with all the emotions flooding through me, I just have to pause. And that voice inside my head keeps telling me over and over again, ‘you are blessed!’ This is the truest joy I know. That word is so evident to me, especially now. I’m fully aware how fast this time passes. Needless to say, I’ve pushed everything else aside and have been relishing this precious time in our lives.
As I introduce our FOURTH member, I should start from the very beginning. We found out early on that our little man was a twin. We were very surprised and sad at the same time, that I was indeed carrying two babies. I know in my heart that the life that never came to be, touched us and planted a light that still shines on. So his middle name has even more meaning to us, and it makes me so happy. Thomas is my Dad’s name and it also means twin. It’s so crazy ironic, and meant to be his middle name. And, Jakes is named after Jacques Kallis, (his nickname is Jakes), a South African cricket player my husband has always admired, and quite possibly the best cricket player of all time.
We didn’t know Jakes was a boy. I can remember exactly the sound of my husbands voice when he told me ‘it’s a boy!’ What an awesome surprise…Jakes Thomas. Welcome to the world son.
Jakes Thomas, you make us complete. I love saying you are my son.
These two together…my heart is full. These moments mean everything to me.